3 days and counting.......

Kadens surgery is scheduled for Monday at 7:30AM. We have to be at the hospital by 5:45, yuck. I have been feeling really good up until today. Its not that I'm feeling "bad" about it....just nervous. Today I received several calls from different people at the hospital who needed to ask questions about Kaden and tell us what to expect. It is all becoming so real! I feel OK until they start taking about things like itty-bitty baby hospital gowns and breathing tubes. Don't get me wrong....I am so thankful for his health and the fact that his surgery is mostly cosmetic and isn't a matter of life and death. We know a family who, just 3 weeks ago, found out that their little girl (who is only a few months older than Ethan) has an incurable brain tumor and they only expect her to live a few months. When I think about this, it makes me feel almost guilty for being upset about Kadens problems. I don't think its possible though for a parent to not be nervous about their infant having major surgery and being under anesthesia for such a long time. They have told us that we will not see him for about 3 hours. I have no doubt that it will be the longest 3 hours of my 26 year life. I just have to remember to have faith and know that God will take care of my little guy. Tuesday morning can't come fast enough.........